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My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would’ve
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is beyond
what human can imagine,
the more it clears the more i have to let you go.

CHORUS:
that’s why i don’t understand is why im feeling
so bad now when i know it was my idea.
i could’ve just denied the truth and
lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded
on the same ground?

My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
Its hard leaving you that way when
I never wanted to.

Self-denial is a game
Its strange i never would’ve
wanted if until there was you.

Because i have learned that love is a
word gets thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i have never have to if all else fail

If all else fail, would you be there to love me?
If all else fail, would you be brave to see right
through me?

Iniisip ko… bkit kya may mga taong nilalayuan ang taong mahal nila… sa kbilang alam nila sa sarili nila na di nila kyang mabuhay nang wala ang mga ito sa kanilang piling… hay…

cguro nga ganito tlga… malamang (at nkccguro ako) utak nanaman ang nanghimasok… bkit nmn kac hindi nlng hayaan ang puso sa mga ganitong aspeto… tpos kpag iniwan nila… sa bandang huli sila rin ang iiyak at magrereklamong nahihirapan… hay.. kawawang mga nilalang..

may nkkaintindi kya sa cnasabi ko ngaun? hay… dpat ang utak ang gumagana dito ngaun… hmmm.. pero kung di kayah… cguro dpat subukan ang puso.. un lng…

NOTE: para sa ibang tao, cguro dun sa mga nsa lower level ng sukatan ng kakayahan sa pag-unawa… ang masasabi lng nila sa post na ito ay…

" ano raw???" o dili kaya’y "ang ganda ng song ni kitchie!!! hay… "

sa iba cguro (lalo na sa mga tinamaan at ngging defensive) pede nilang sabihin.. "anong mahirap intindhin dun?!–duh!"

hay.. bahala n nga..nang-aasar nlng ako eh.. :)

(bkit ka ganyang magsalita? feeling mo nnmn may ngbabasa ng blog na to.. Asa k nnmn…)

Ay… bkit? masama? kla mo ba mganda yang gngawa mo n kinokontra mo ko?

(hala cge magpapansin k nnmn… kla mo nmn cguro nkkaliw mga pinag-ggawa mo… naku tumigil tigil…)

Alam mo… di nmn kita kilala… d rin nmn tau close… kung di ko lng iniisip ang mga taong makakabasa nito bka kung ano ang nsabi ko… hush k n nga  jan!

(naku… asa…)

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5:00 Am, Medyo malamig ang atmosphere… mabigat pa ang ktawan ko… gusto ko p sanang matulog pero di n pde.. first day ito ng aking school! (Hindi pedeng mangyari sa unang araw ang nkasanayan…)

Naligo na ko at ngbihis.. kumain na q at ngcpilyo… mga 6:00 Am ready nako… all my bags are packed na… pati packed lunch nkbalot na… iniimagine ko na nga ang pagsalute ko sa mga prof.. ang paghigh five sa mga classmate… pati nga rin ang pag-erase ng board na may funk ang paggalaw!

6:15Am, masyadong maaga para umalis pero kailangn kong tiyakin (na hindi mangyayari ang nakasanayan na) kya khit taliwas (sa aking nkasanayan) i set my foot out side ng bahay… as i did, parang my kuryenteng gumapang sa katawan q!

6:15Am, Tuesday morning, 13th of june… Naalala ko! ala p pala akong pasok! Thursday pla ang sked ng class ko!

6:16Am,i crawled back to my higaan.. medyo mabigat parin katawan ko… kya un, eclip ulit… hehe…

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As a check my email, i happen to open a forwarded msg from a friend. The msg was about a story of a boy and his mother… None much. I just find the story touching –in a sense. Any way, my objective, really, was to share the story. So.. here it is, fresh from the pages of my email add… read and enjoy them ur self/selves… ala lng.. cge.

Some years ago on a hot summer day in South Florida a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore. His mother, in the house looking out the window, saw the two as they got closer and closer together. In utter fear, she ran toward the water, yelling to her son as loudly as she could. Hearing her voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his mother. It was too late. Just as he reached her, the alligator reached him. From the dock, the mother grabbed her little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of- war between the two. The alligator was much stronger than the mother, but the mother was much too passionate to let go. A farmer happened to drive by, heard her creams, raced from his truck, took aim and shot the alligator. Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the little boy survived. His legs were extremely scarred by the vicious attack of the animal. And, on his arms, were deep scratches where his mother’s fingernails dug into his flesh in her effort to hang on to the son she loved. The newspaper reporter who inter- viewed the boy after the trauma, asked if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs. And then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, "But look at my arms I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my mom wouldn’t let go." You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too. No, not from an alligator, but the scars of a painful past. Some of those scars are unsightly and have caused us deep regret. But, some wounds, my friend, are because God has refused to let go. In the midst of your struggle, He’s been there holding on to you. The scripture teaches that God loves you. If you are a child of God He will protect you and provide for you in every way. But sometimes we foolishly wade into dangerous situations, not knowing what lies ahead. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril - and we forget that the enemy is waiting to attack. That’s when the tug-of-war begins - and if you have the scars of His love on your arms be very, very grateful. He did not and will not ever let you go.

Please pass this on to those you love.

God has blessed you, so that you can be a blessing to others. You just never know where a person is in his/her life and what they are going through. Never judge another persons scars, because you don’t know how they got them. Also, it is so important that we are not selfish to receive the blessings of these messages without forwarding them to someone else. Right now, someone needs to know that God loves them, and you love them too - - - enough to not let them go.

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