After spending two and a half hour of playing the not-so-loved-by-teen (it’s actually a sarcasm) pc game, DOTA. I never thought i’ll be convincing myself of going back to the pc shop and add an entry to my kulang-sa-pansin na blog. (ouch) uhm… well, i really dont know how to start… (heheh?)
It has been a long but enjoyable two and half hour, exploring the so-much-fuzzed DOTA, i have decided to call it a day and retire home when i had this not-really-unusual, but not-that-considerably-normal experience, or maybe?
I remember checking my belonging for the last time and finally thanking the shop owner (for..uhm– giving my change? i really cant tell- its been a habit) before stepping out of the pc shop. I was about to reach for the door, when a girl and her company managed to reach the knob first, there’s nothing much about them, its just that they opened the door so slowly and walked pass it as if they have all the luxury of time - not considering that im getting darn irritated waiting for them to clear the path. At anyrate, after several minutes i was able to get through them and was able to reach the stairs first (exit is down)…
*My blog entry for today could have ended here if not for what happened next*
Half way the stairs, i heard an obviously surprised feminine voice, "Uy, kuya totoy!!" having a similar nick at home my attention was caught. Wondering who the name-caller be, i turned my head… and boom, dilemma start.
A girl, with a typical filipina-student look, clad in typical orange blouse and blue jeans was stepping down the stairs, looking at me, smiling and mouthing words, which reads to me like "anong ginagawa mo dito?" To my wonder, i just stared…frowned a bit… and stared further.
While the scanning feature of the eyes function, my neurons were busy sending and retrieving data from my recent and remote memory in the depth of my white matter, rummaging and almost digging to infinite folders of memory and events to match an identity to the details of this girl who called my name. To my surprise, and panic, my brain retrieved nothing…
Whaah!!! who is this girl?!?!
She is getting closer… and closer.
With the look in her eyes, i can feel that she really knew me.
She is stepping further down the stairs… ASking the same question and adding "kmusta na?"
Who is this girl?? the question bombards my starting to panic consciousness. Physically, im restraining my self from manifesting awkward expressions of utter awe, doubt, and panic ( im controlling not to turn and walk away, and pretend i haven’t heard anything) As mush as possible not showing any affect in fear that she might be referring to someone else behind my back.
She’s almost at the last flight of the stairs…i tried to glance behind for the latter and hoped, but found no one. I can hear her mentioning to her girl company, "ate, si kuya totoy… magaling yan!"
Oh my gosh.. this girl must have been really referring to me..:) (kapal ng mukha) with that, my brain cells has decided this girl must really knew me.
Now… what’s next? my conscience telling me…
I could have utilized the Hi!-mbuti-ako,-kaw-musta-ka-na’s and a little bit of san-ka-nagyon’s then just left after her reply and pretend that i’m in a hurry to another apointment. But then again, that’s not me. its over pretentious. I feel it quite rude..
On the other hand, I could have opt for being honest and telling her that i dont remember her… but it requires guts and superb tactfulness which unfortunately, i dont have. What will i do?
There’s actually another means of handling this situation.. i know… but my consiousness is overwhelmed by the anxiety… the sympathetic system which is responsoble for the fight-or-flight mechanism seems to have opt for the flight a while ago, was now exhausted (never mind… medical blah)
Anyway, i just cant opt for any of the two… it requires a lot of everything which i dont have… so, I… I combined them. (yeah, yeah… pretentious… rude… i know)
Back to the tactile world, i realized she’s now beside me… and was ushered to walking along with them…the kamusta-ka-na’s began and the pretend-i-know-you part commenced.. My actual plan was to get necessary data or desperately anything that may help me associate a memory which hopefully contained even a mursel of this girl’s identity..
The conversation continued and the plan seemed to be falling into place… though I faltered and had several funny questions (i find it funny to ask something which i thought she know, about my alma mater for instance) i think the plan is meeting its goal. Good thing the girl was nice and was very modest, she’s not difficult to be with.
In the process i realized that the girl was a former neighbor and that we havent really talked much… that’s why i dont remember her (obviously, i dont want to blame my memory for this one).
Anyway, the conversation ended as we have to branch ways (thank God)I dont know if she felt the tension, but in my opinion, it went smoothly… besides if she really knew me, she wont be surprised. Hay… I dont know if i really did the right thing… but then, that’s what happened. 
I’m not sure if I have to hate DOTA. I could have gone and finished this entry earlier if not for these wild-hyperactive-dirty-mouth students playing the game.. Every now and then, someone is pounding the table and yelling nasty obsceneties evrytime their character will be attacked. And it disturbs me so much… especially now that i need lot of focus… im using english. hay..
if ever the girl im refering to in this entry have read this entry… i’ll never forget you now.. 
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